Jandek — First Awake Moment lyrics

First awake moment
Joy, sorrow
Pain, lifeline
Slam
Second sight
Sixth image
God fear
Third light
Marriage sight
Key
And they were
??? beauty
On what I have held my heart
So long is you
Against the call
Of an outstretched hand
Of a drowning figure
So long ???
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