Turmoil — Impending Doom Theory lyrics

Everyday I become more afraid of the form I take this
Person unfamiliar to me each waking moment fixated on
Past encounters as I sift through the ashes of who I
Used to be I fight this everyday more of the same
Bludgeon myself with the hope of resurrecting my dying
Dream I fight this everyday words were spilled
Carelessly I'm trying to remove the stain I don't want
To know the answers you'll give I would rather kill
The messenger killing me I fight this everyday I reach
Inside to remove the organ that's bleeding the life
From this frame
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